Have you ever...

I'm 29 years old. I have an amazing,inspiring,hardworking, without a doubt the Yin to my Yang hubby.. I call him.. Big Daddy Longhorn ( get your mind outta the gutter the Longhorn represents his LOVE for TEXAS). I have 2 of most free spirited boys in the world. They are both strong willed,funny,loving,good natured boys. They are known as Brax and Bro. I have a wonderful family. 2 Brothers who like to keep their sister stressed out but I wouldn't trade them for a million dollars. My Grandparents are a God sends. One being so angelic God came and took her back for himself.(Still very jealous,not to sound greedy but I wanted to keep her for myself. I mean she totally was my super woman.) My Grandparents are totally on my best friend list. Be JEALOUS they are wonderful. Friends.. Yep, I have them.. I am beyond blessed in that department. I have the kind that will escort you home in the middle of a foggy beyond foggiest nights . The kind that no matter how busy life gets the second you talk it's just like you had coffee yesterday. Can't get any better friends then that. My life is pretty damn good. I am beyond blessed.





All of these wonderful perks in my life. I still have one thing missing.. Somewhere during the late night changing /feeding of my Brax or Bro, the running from playdate to playdate. The worrying about how I was gonna take when my Angel would pass away and believe me having that consume your thoughts for 3 years does HAVIC on your body. Somewhere in the midst of my wonderful life that I wouldn't change.. Something has been literly WEIGHING me down.. Something has taken my extra SPARKLE.. The Sass in my Pants. Somewhere down the line, I as much as I am embarassed to say.. I let myself go..


I find myself wondering how great my life would be if only the real P.J. was there to enjoy it.


I have decided that THIS is MY year. My kids are more indepedent. I have no EXCUSE. That Skinny girl that is trapped in this fat suit is going to be making her debut.. I'm taking it one pound at a time.. It's gonna be a long hard battle BUT I am FINALLY ready . My big focus is going to be on home cooked meals..I will share my hits and misses..


My question is.. Have you ever thought how awesome life would be if ONLY one thing was different? Mine is my weight.





**My life really is good.. FAR FAR from perfect but I choose to look at ONLY the good because well.. I have enough bad from my past that I could bring back most of the soaps that have been canceled . **





Be Blessed,


P.J. xoxoxo